When Trust Becomes Possible

Dear Brave Soul,

I used to flinch at kindness.

Not because I didn’t want it, but because I didn’t trust it.

I’d been taught that love could turn, that safety had conditions, that joy was something you paid for later.

So I braced for the rug to be pulled, for the goodbye that always came, for the moment something beautiful would break.

That’s how I lived.

On edge.

Prepared for disappointment.

Ready for the fall. Even in the middle of flight.

That became my Until Now.

Because something has shifted.

Not loudly. Not all at once.

But enough to steady myself.

Now I can let the good in without gripping it tight.

I can sit inside the calm without scanning for the storm.

I can be loved without needing proof.

I don’t carry my past like armor anymore.

I don’t confuse chaos with love.

I don’t expect pain just because things are good.

I trust peace now.

I believe in ease.

And I finally understand that healing doesn’t mean forgetting.

It means remembering with grace.

So if you’re still bracing…

Still flinching…

Still expecting everything to fall apart…

This is your reminder:

Not everything beautiful has to hurt.

Not every chapter begins in loss.

Not every love is a lesson.

Sometimes, it’s just good.

Sometimes, it stays.

And sometimes, the shift you never thought possible becomes the life you are living now.

This is mine.

What is your Until Now?

With love,

Kerri